As I think about my life with Derek the last year, many things come to mind. I left a lot of family and friends in MI, but I knew what I was doing was for the better of my future family. Left a career that I was lucky to have, but still unhappy doing it. A fresh start and an open road ahead. One thing that never did come to mind however is the crossing of a bridge, the one way kind. Making decisions that can lose you friends, however better for you the choice to move on may be. It doesn't make it any easier to deal with the pain of possibly losing friends you so much have come to love. Also there is the wise-old choice of going back to school. You can't come back from that the same person! You learn things you never knew before, start speaking a brand new language of the program you chose. Not to mention making new friends and trying to remember the ones you had before. Houses and babies come into your mind, teasing and taunting you with the if's, and's and but's of the matter. Not to mention the "what if's". Those are the worst! All this comes to mind in the one year that I've been in Colorado, and that's not the half of it! Visions of mission work and youth are dancing in my head constantly. Where does life end anyways? HA! Life as we know it doesn't last nearly as long as we think, but eternity is forever. I'm so glad that eternity doesn't involve stress, sore backs and homework.
Goodnight.
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